Weight Wednesday Is Back!

Ok so its officially back and I’m going to stick to it this time! no matter how busy life gets or how much I fail (hopefully not this time) I am going to keep updating this!

Ive been trying to get better again just by cutting out fizzy drinks and stuff like that, its been good somedays when its super hot and all I want is a cold drink of fizzy its so difficult! I do still have it, I have it on the weekends and one or two between the week. It might sound still bad but to me that it literally amazing because I would drink a whole 2 litre bottle everyday so to me thats an improvement! Ive gotten better on eating chocolate this week its much better I do still have some just not a lot, I’m just getting better with my lactose intolerance  because I have started eating cakes and chocolate bad  but now I’m completely off of it again really!

Exercise is decent at the moment, since Monday I have been out on a couple of walks and  done a few exercises, they do make me very tired but a little while after I do have more energy and I feel great so its worth it, Ive recently bought some of the Demi Lovato Fabletics range so I’m raring to get out tomorrow to start exercising in my new workout gear!

So at the moment I’m at 24 stone 5 pounds which is 341 pounds. My goal for next week is to loose at least 3 pounds!

Much Love



Cutiepiemarzia’s Floral Subscription Box


This is Marzia’s Floral Box! I love the front design of the box I find the little creatures cute and I like the fact that Marzia drew them and added them into the floral design of the box. I hate that they just use the shipping box as the actual subscription box because there never as nice to just keep but then I get that it saves on packaging and using more resources.

Fresh Rose Deep Hydration Face Cream


I LOVE this product, it smells amazing it feels amazing on my skin! Im going to use it as my special moisturiser and not use it up all in one go just because it smells so good! It didn’t make my skin too oily which I suffer with, with moisturisers so that was a surprise! I would definitely look into buying the full size product of this one. Its supposed to offer over 24 hours of hydration and it definitely did, in the morning my skin wasn’t dried up or anything like that It was a really good product! Even if it wasn’t I would still buy it just to sit there and smell it to be honest so it being a great product is just a plus!

Yes to Calming Micellar Cleansing Water

This is a nice product, to me it doesn’t stand out as one of the best products from the box. It smells really nice! It does smell quite strong of cucumbers which is quite nice because it does feel like its cleansing and lasts a nice smell on the skin after. It is a cleanser, toner and moisturiser in one which is really good! To be it made my skin a little oily after wards which isn’t great but that happens often with products just because of my skin type. The pump dispenser is cool, sometimes it does go everywhere if you don’t cover the cotton pad completely over but it is quite a nice idea and it does dispense enough to do your whole face and neck!

Smashbox Photo Finish Primer


I really love this product! Ive already looked into buying the full size! It feels so smooth on the skin, it doesn’t make my skin oily which is a massive plus for me, makeup goes on so easy and smooth it literally makes makeup going on the skin feel like a cloud. It make my makeup stay all day and it didn’t budge! It is close to the benefit cosmetics pore one but I like this one a lot more, I would choose this one over it any day just by how easy it make applying my makeup!

 DERMA E Microdermabrasion Scrub


This product is really good for acne! I found that I’ve been under a lot of stress lately so my skin has been a nightmare! This has helped a lot, it helped the spots that I did have come up so go away which was amazing because it was awful! You can only use this twice a week which is quite annoying as I would use it all the time but its because of how hard of a scrub it is. It helped a lot with my dry skin as well, it didn’t completely get rid of it but it helped, My acne scars seem to be a little less obvious, still there but not as clear and dark which is amazing . I looked online and the price for full size isn’t too bad, It is quite expensive but it would be worth the money.

Custom Marzia WinkyLux Eyeshadow

I love the fact that they gave out micro eyeshadows from Marzias new collab, Thats always the plus with having marzias box because you always get something from if she collars with a company. I love the packaging of this product, I wish the actual eyeshadow packaging was that same as the outside package but sadly its just a white but it means that I’ve kept the out packaging because its too cute to throw out. This is a very orange eyeshadow! I didn’t think I would be able to wear it just because I’m more of a pale colour eyeshadow but when you blend this one out, you can see that its orange but its a very subtle one because I hardly used any product just because I didn’t want a bright orange eye if not if you put a lot on you would have a very bright orange eye. It blends out really well and is a really nice formula. I would love to see the big palette and I might look into getting it!

Surprise Product from Kate Aspen 


These are the salt and pepper shakers from the Kate aspen collection. There was the chance of these and a photo frame. I really like these I find these really cute and very nice decor, I think I would of preferred the photo frame just because the pattern on the box of this one was the print of the photo frame so that would of been cute but I do still like these. They are very small so you would have to refill them every time which would be a pain but there worth the effort just by how cute they are!

Kenra Professional Platinum Blow Dry Spray


This is one of my favourites from the box, it makes my hair feel so soft and silky and it also helps with the knots that I’m struggling with at the moment. Even if my hair is super knotty I just put this on my wet hair and put a brush through it and its completely fine! It also helps with flyaway during the day, it never seems to be frizzy after drying and helps to keep to style in longer. I will be buying this after this bottle runs out because it helps a lot with struggling to brush my hair!

Forest Creatures Sewing Kit 

Mini sewing kits are always handy! This one literally has everything even buttons and a safety clip. My only issue was as soon as I opened it , it broke so every time I open it, it breaks open and I have to struggle to close it so I don’t think it was very expensive for them to make. other than that I do really like this product and the idea of it. Its also a very good mini sewing kit as it has EVERYTHING! I love Marzias little forest creatures designs there really cute!

White Wire Headband


This is a really cute add on to the box! Im not sure wether I would ever use it just because my head doesn’t suit things at all. Its a good quality product, not a lot was thought of it I don’t think but it is really cute and does fill in the box really well.

Overall I liked this box, this was a lot better than the last one but there was the same issue as I had last time as that there isn’t a lot of personally thought out things and just products, it must be the plan that she has because its always 2 things that is personally made for the box. This boxes products were better than the last one, I’m more likely to use these products and have actually given me more ideas of what products. Hopefully next box she will have more self thought products in!

Much Love



Birchbox : May 2017


It’s May already! So its already time for my review of this months Birchbox. I loved the design on the box this month, I’m keeping it the same as I did last month ( I just hope this doesn’t become a reacurence )

Benefit Cosmetics : The POREfessional Matte Rescue|RRP £23.50


Iv’e always been a fan of benefit products they’ve always worked out for me like the mascaras and tints. This one has always been a go to for me as I’ve used this before, It is very pricy but I would pay full price (I’ve only ever been able to afford the small tubes) It always works well on my acne prone skin, it helps my skin to look less oily for much longer than normal products. The size of this product is really great, its good for traveling but its larger than there normal small size products. This was a really good product to come from Birchbox!

Doucce : Punk Volumizer Mascara | RRP £18


This is my first time trying a product from this brand. Apparently it was a birch box exclusive! Im quite fussy with mascaras because Im not a fan of ones that clump your eyelashes together, so its quite difficult to find one that doesn’t do that as everyone seems to like that type of eyelash at the moment. This one was great! I didn’t put an eyelash primer on underneath and it worked really well! I would consider buying the full product but it is the same price as Clinique and I would prefer the Clinique one but this one is still great on its own. I wouldn’t say it didn’t give my lashes more volume but it didn’t clump my eyelashes so that was all that mattered for me so if your someone looking for one that can help with that maybe this one isn’t for you.

Kueshi : Hair Mask Shine & Volume | RRP £10.50


This was a decent product. Lets just say I wouldn’t buy it, it made my hair too volumised for my liking, some people would like a product like that so if you like your hair to have volume this product does work. Its just not for me as I don’t like having volume to my already thick frizzy hair! I felt like it also made my hair very knotty which for a conditioner should do the opposite but that might be because of the dye build up on the bottom of my hair not suiting this product as normally my hair isn’t knotty so it might just not work well with this product. I personally wouldn’t buy the full size product of this but if your looking for very volumised hair then this is the product for you!

Marsk : Mineral Eyeshadow in Fifty Shades | RRP £14.49


To be honest, I really don’t like the colour, but that is completely on me because I hate black eyeshadows, I find it hard to find an eyeshadow I like as it is and a black one to be is just completely off the ball! To be honest I haven’t tried this product just because I can’t ever wear black eyeshadow, I tried it on the back of my hand and it applied really well but other than that I can’t give an honest review of it. Only that I don’t understand why birch box didn’t let everyone choose which colour everyone would like because the difference between black and the light white colour they had is completely different and I would of used the whiter one but this one I can’t use which is a shame.

Obsessive Compulsive Cosmetics : Lip Tar Primer | RRP £15.00


I like this product. I feel like its worth buying instead of lip balms because it kept my lips very hydrated throughout the day and I didn’t feel the need to apply lip balm which obviously saves time throughout the day and saves product as I didn’t have to use it multiple times. I didn’t try it under lipstick because I’m not much of a fan but as it says on the product you can just use it as a lip balm so thats what I’m going to use it for. I would possibly by this product again it is very expensive for the size of It but I imagine it would be bigger for the price as they give testers so I would possibly see what size the full size is.

I liked this box, its not amazing but its been better than the others, I just wished they had asked which colour you wanted for the eyeshadow then it would of been my favourite! I loved the box design thats definitely my fave because Im a massive fan of marble! Ive kept this one as well as the Boden one because they are very good to keep little odd things in and the designs are really nice!

Much Love



Makeup Remover Cloths!


Now I know you’ve probably heard about the makeup eraser! Who’s hasn’t! Well while I was shopping I found these at B&M bargains for a whopping bargain for £1.99! Ive been trying to find a cheap alternate for the makeup eraser for a long time because I liked the thought of them, I think there great for saving on waste because your not having to throw out makeup wipes and all that which I hate doing! These you literally have to just wash and there ready to use again! I really like these! I have used them and washed them again to see if they still worked after washing them, and yes they did!

How long they will last for, I don’t know but then thats the same for everything even if it saves me from using up a pack of wipes and throwing them out I’m happy! For the price they are its a bargain. There quite soft on your face which is nice, they say they have a exfoliant side but I’m not sure which one it is as when you wet them they just seem the same, you can tell when there dry but not when there wet.

My only issue with these is literally that you have to wash them if not you have no means of getting your makeup off at night, but if you get enough to last the week that won’t be a problem as I am going to get some more soon so that won’t be an issue then. It does take maybe a little longer than it does a wipe but I normally get a stinging on my eyes and face which I didn’t get with these because its literally just water,  So this is definitely a good cheap alternative and I would recommend!

Much Love





My Thoughts On 13 Reasons Why…


This is my thoughts on the Netflix Original series ’13 reasons why’ which is based off the book ’13 reasons why’. Theres a lot of controversial comments everywhere about this show at the moment. I decided I would watch it because my sister had mentioned it too me and said how great it was and then every time I logged onto Facebook there was some post about the show on there so I figured it was time to finally watch it to see what the craze was about. I really really loved this show, in all honesty the first few I wasn’t too into I didn’t know wether I would carry on watching it but all of a sudden I was into it and so obsessed and couldn’t stop watching.

Im not aiming to put spoilers in this but just in case your someone who hasn’t watched it, you might read something you don’t want too just yet. It doesn’t take long to get into the story as it starts basically straight away from the first episode which is great because I like programmes and films that are fast moving just because my concentration isn’t the best. But after that I was hooked and with having a busy life it was difficult to find time so I had to find time!

Its a very gripping programme with the story lines it deals with, from sexual assault to self harm to suicide. Its handling with a lot which is good because its basically showing all the issues and topics that it seems society is trying to keep away from. I feel like it handles the topics very well in the way they show each one. The main one is obviously the suicide of Hannah baker which is one of the scenes that has been spoke about the most as people think its too graphic.

From someone who has experienced self harm and attempted suicide attempts I feel like this show puts everything into light, the fact that multiple things can just add up to everything being too much for someone. The only issue that the programme has is that it doesn’t mention mental health a lot. It just mentions that the people are the reasons why which is half the reason why. Their actions obviously didn’t help with the fact that Hannah baker was mentally ill, It is just making the point that you shouldn’t treat people like that because you don’t know what their dealing with on the inside so your actions might not help. There are so many scenes that are real tear jerkers and others that are just very uncomfortable, like the rape scenes and obviously Hannah suicide scene, coming back to that my view is that yes it was very graphic, very, and being someone who has self harmed it is quite triggering but I did look up before watching the show to see if there was any scenes with that being involved just because I do get triggered by that. So I was expecting that to happen I was aware just like everyone else that had decided to watch the show as its a show on suicide. I think that scene was needed though, just as it showed how it can send people into such a low point that they would do that to themselves. It showed that yes maybe sometimes its something small but to someone else it can be a life changer.

I feel like parents complaining about this is ridiculous. Obviously it comes up with a warning as the show starts, Its rated an 18. If parents are complaining about how it encourages suicide and romanticises it they shouldn’t be showing it to underage kids, as its coming from schools that there putting a warning over it. Its got a high age rating for a reason and a warning in the beginning for a reason. Part of me feels like its people that don’t want to hear about it and don’t want that topic brought up. I might be wrong, but to me its showing what this shows trying to get out there and thats that people need to talk about it, people need to see this and understand that thats whats going on in some peoples head. This needs to be a topic and programme that is talked about and not put to the back because its ‘too’ graphic.

I love this programme and I would even rewatch it again. I think more people need to see this and more people need to get talking about the issues that is raised!

Much Love



( Im also hoping for a season 2, just like everyone else )

Birchbox : April 2017


This is Aprils Birchbox! I failed to upload last months as a lot was going on but I’m back to my normal routine!


This is the ‘Luseta Beauty Keratin Smooth Conditioner’ and it retails for £5. I was bit confused as to wether this product would work with it not having a shampoo companion but I figured I would just try it with my normal conditioner and It was really great. The smell of the product is really nice, it doesn’t really leave a lasting smell on your hair though which is a bummer. It did smooth out my hair really well, Ive gone through troubles with flyaway with my hair lately and this product really helped! For the price of the full size product I would definitely buy because It’s quite cheap and It was a product that would really well for me!


This is the ‘Polaar IcePure gentle scrub with arctic cream’ and the full size product retails for £23.50. This product doesn’t smell nice, well I’m not a fan, It doesn’t leave a lasting smell on the skin though so its fine. I liked this product, I don’t feel like it was amazing as it goes for in shower scrubs but as I’m a fan of the lush scrub this doesn’t even compare. Its not a heavy scrub so I don’t feel like it really does anything. It does leave the skin more moisturised but other than just putting on a moisturiser its not a product I would buy out for.


This is the ‘Manna Kadar Cosmetics High Definition Powder’ and it retails for £27. This was the special product that everyone could choose there type that they would like and I chose the high definition powder because it sounded like something I would use more than the other choice. I was angry about this product it sounds stupid but being told that something the size of your pinky is a full size product can make you a little annoyed. I couldn’t even fit my brush into the powder its that small. It doesn’t even really do anything either, it doesn’t make my skin look any better or any worse. I 100% wouldn’t buy it as its such a stupid size. It’s a product I will probably end up just throwing out.


This is the ‘Baija Paris Creme Moana In Fleur De Tiare’ and it retails for £15.90. This product is a French based company as you can tell by the name. This was my Favourite product this month, I LOVE IT! The smell from this lotion is amazing! I got a little bit on the bottle on the outside as I was using it and because I put it back into the box my whole birch box smells so nice! It rubs in so quick and doesn’t leave a horrible sticky feeling which is one reason why I hate body lotion. The smell lasts a hell of a long time as well which makes It even better as its basically a perfume at the same time. I will definitely be buying this product!


This is the ‘ModelCo Eye Define Crayon Liner’ and it retails for £11 which for a eyeliner can be seen as expensive. Its a good Eyeliner, just nothing special, it does the same as what the others do which is smudge on the bottom eyeliner when thats not were you want it to be which is one thing I was hoping wouldn’t happen with this one. I would rather just buy a cheaper one that does the same really!

This months birch box looked so pretty! I loved the box pattern so much! The products were decent it was just the powder that was very bad and thats just because of it being ‘full size’ I’ve seen a lot of complaints online about its towards birch box so hopefully they would sell another tiny product with it being full size! Other than that it was a really good box!

Much Love



Loosing Friends….

I’ve found that since deciding to move to Bristol everything and everyone around me has changed, from work to people who I thought were always my best friends.

Today I tried to make plans with my long time best friend to see her before I moved. She really isn’t interested. I think Iv’e known for a long time that my best friend was no longer my best friend but I just never wanted to admit it. My partner always told me that it was me that was doing the running and making all the effort but I always put it off and stuck up for her but today Iv’e finally had enough. It’s gotten to a point today I’m willing to send out a goodbye text to her. I cried ill admit it, as its a part of my life that was my childhood and a part that i always thought would be around but maybe that wasn’t supposed to happen. The situations might change and I would be happy about that of course but I’m now moving on with my life and I’ve decided I’m not going to do the running anymore. If people want to be my friend they make just as much amount of effort if not I’m not interested.

As you get older you do finally realise that your getting older and its scary, really scary. I’m the first one to officially leave the nest in my house which has made my mum very low and to the point where shes actually poorly. I haven’t got upset about the thought of leaving home yet, I don’t think It’s set in and I don’t think it will for quite a while but when It does I know It will hit me hard.

I never thought the day would come that I would loose one of the people that I thought would always be In my life, but apparently It was meant to be. I know my family will keep in contact which is nice to know that ill always have that to come back too in Stroud.

Life’s scary, even more scary Iv’e recently realised. I’m putting all my hope in me and my partner. I’m leaving my family, Iv’e left two jobs, Iv’e left my home town and Its all because of my partner. I wouldn’t change that for the world. Iv’e finally got what I wanted in life, A partner, a best friend and someone I’m spending the rest of my life with and I’m so excited to see what will happen next for me. I may have lost a few friends but Iv’e gained myself a real best friend for life now.

Live life on the edge and to the fullest. You may loose somethings on the way but it makes you realise who is real and who’s loyal to being in your life.

Lots of love



Climbing Pen Y Fan!

So Iv’e climbed my first mountain!

It was very very hard!

When my partner asked me if I wanted to climb a mountain I originally said no, just purely because of my size and I’m not really amazing at walking as my family’s a sat down family, but I have been going out walking and trying to get better over these past few months in the hopes that I would feel up to doing it. I was always scared just knowing that I would struggle a lot more than everyone else that did it would.

But coming up to Easter Sunday and I’m getting ready to go on a mountain walk. Who would of thought it, the worst walker and most moaner would end up walking up a mountain.

The first bit was one of the hardest, just because it was so steep and unstable so it took a toll on the ankles! I also got out of breath A LOT! It turned out that the rain decided to completely destroy the day and tip town on us at the top of the ridge! Me being me didn’t exactly wear the most sensible clothes so I was freezing! We then decided that it was too unsafe to actually climb the top of the mountain which made me devastated, just because I was already in so much pain that knowing that I still wasn’t actually going to do it was just heart breaking. But it turned out that us trying to make our way off of the mountain would end up in us actually walking up the mountain by accident. Which was amazing because it turned out that all the pain really was worth it in the end and wasn’t wasted. Getting off the mountain was so terrifying because as you came to the bottom all you could see was a stone and nothing else because you had to climb all the way down. Which was scary but as soon as your on the flat it feels so much better!

Even after we climbed the mountain we still had to walk all the way back to the car which was a walk in its self, and when your in pain its tripled in size!

Overall I feel really proud of myself, just because I never knew I could do something like that, and its all from the help of my partner and his family. There the ones that have encouraged me to be able to do it . My partner was always there pushing me through it and holding my hand, his mum was there cheering me on and making me know I could do it. Ill always be grate full to My partner and his encouragement with getting me walking and not sitting down all the time . Hes helped me found a hobby I actually really enjoy and cant wait to do more of!

Any girl, any size can do what ever she wants. It may be a struggle to get out there and exercise but in the end its still possible. Anything is possible!

Much Love




Weight Wednesday Week 6

Ok I think its safe to say I’ve given up on my diet! Im so annoyed at myself because I thought this time I would try really hard, but in all fairness my life is so stressful at the moment that I’m just eating takeaways and chocolate to help with stress which Is a poor excuse really!

Hopefully this week I’m going to try and get back on it so I feel a lot less bloated for the mountain this Sunday coming which I was hoping I would be 2 stone lighter by then but even though I haven’t lost weight I am still fitter than I was a few months ago with the walking that I do now. Normally when my partner walked up the shop to get something I would just get him to get what ever I wanted or I just wouldn’t go. Now ill walk up even when I don’t want anything, the trouble with that is that I walk up for chocolate when I want some but I have improved on that half! Im not so lazy any more and that was one of my bad habits. So even though I’ve put on a few pounds doesn’t mean that I haven’t still improved! I’m not back up to 24 stone 8 pounds which is so disappointing! I really need to remember the reason why I want to do it again and not just cave into the stress and business and start cooking and not eating chocolate again! Seen as though I’m lactose intolerant anyway.

So hopefully next week I will see an improvement! Hopefully walking up the mountain will help shift a few pounds as well!

Lots of Love



Weight Wednesday Week 5

Yep Im completely slacking on the whole blogging at the moment!

My life depending on the way that you look at it could be seen as a complete disaster or that I’m winning at life. Ive now finished working for the co-op which was one of the best decisions I’ve made so far but the job that I’ve left it for is now giving me headaches so I might now be loosing that one and just moving down to Bristol and winging it! I will admit I’m stressed as fuck at the moment. But isn’t that the part of growing up, being stressed and crying and all that. Life scary when you don’t have your parents making the decisions for you!

Anyway with that explained as to why I’m so terrible at blogging at the moment I need to talk about my weight.

Its not too bad at the moment. Last week I somehow managed to get down to 23 stone 12 pounds which made me so happy! But then in that time I decided that I would treat myself and eat unhealthy again which didn’t help because now I’m back unto 24 stone 2 pounds. But this does still mean I’ve lost a stone since Christmas which is the best I’ve done!

Ive also been very good with walking, me and my partner have been doing odd walks, I do sweat and get so out of breath but he encourages me so much that I just can’t give up! I love walking just something about it really calms me down and makes me feel way more awake and less frumpy when I move ( its a bit strange to describe it in that way but if your a big lass like me, you will understand where I’m coming from) We also went on our first walk with his parents and it wasn’t too bad. I didn’t sweat out too bad and actually felt alright while doing it for a change and not like I was dying . I am getting used to taking breaks when my body felt like it and not so much just trying to get the walk finished and get back to lying down. I am still eating quite bad seen as though mc donalds decided  it would bring back monopoly just in time when the mountain is in a few weeks. I feel like I’m going to do ok. I know ill be able to take as long as I want but it is a little scary, I just know that I’m going to feel so proud of myself after it so I know that its going to be worth it!

I have injured my hip which is so worrying though as I really don’t want anything to stop me from walking up that mountain so I need to rest it as much as possible! If not I guess I’m going to be stocked up on very strong painkillers for that day!

So I feel like the past few weeks was a success and I know I just have to carry on trying like I am as I am getting there slowly!

Much Love!