Birchbox : April 2017


This is Aprils Birchbox! I failed to upload last months as a lot was going on but I’m back to my normal routine!


This is the ‘Luseta Beauty Keratin Smooth Conditioner’ and it retails for £5. I was bit confused as to wether this product would work with it not having a shampoo companion but I figured I would just try it with my normal conditioner and It was really great. The smell of the product is really nice, it doesn’t really leave a lasting smell on your hair though which is a bummer. It did smooth out my hair really well, Ive gone through troubles with flyaway with my hair lately and this product really helped! For the price of the full size product I would definitely buy because It’s quite cheap and It was a product that would really well for me!


This is the ‘Polaar IcePure gentle scrub with arctic cream’ and the full size product retails for £23.50. This product doesn’t smell nice, well I’m not a fan, It doesn’t leave a lasting smell on the skin though so its fine. I liked this product, I don’t feel like it was amazing as it goes for in shower scrubs but as I’m a fan of the lush scrub this doesn’t even compare. Its not a heavy scrub so I don’t feel like it really does anything. It does leave the skin more moisturised but other than just putting on a moisturiser its not a product I would buy out for.


This is the ‘Manna Kadar Cosmetics High Definition Powder’ and it retails for £27. This was the special product that everyone could choose there type that they would like and I chose the high definition powder because it sounded like something I would use more than the other choice. I was angry about this product it sounds stupid but being told that something the size of your pinky is a full size product can make you a little annoyed. I couldn’t even fit my brush into the powder its that small. It doesn’t even really do anything either, it doesn’t make my skin look any better or any worse. I 100% wouldn’t buy it as its such a stupid size. It’s a product I will probably end up just throwing out.


This is the ‘Baija Paris Creme Moana In Fleur De Tiare’ and it retails for £15.90. This product is a French based company as you can tell by the name. This was my Favourite product this month, I LOVE IT! The smell from this lotion is amazing! I got a little bit on the bottle on the outside as I was using it and because I put it back into the box my whole birch box smells so nice! It rubs in so quick and doesn’t leave a horrible sticky feeling which is one reason why I hate body lotion. The smell lasts a hell of a long time as well which makes It even better as its basically a perfume at the same time. I will definitely be buying this product!


This is the ‘ModelCo Eye Define Crayon Liner’ and it retails for £11 which for a eyeliner can be seen as expensive. Its a good Eyeliner, just nothing special, it does the same as what the others do which is smudge on the bottom eyeliner when thats not were you want it to be which is one thing I was hoping wouldn’t happen with this one. I would rather just buy a cheaper one that does the same really!

This months birch box looked so pretty! I loved the box pattern so much! The products were decent it was just the powder that was very bad and thats just because of it being ‘full size’ I’ve seen a lot of complaints online about its towards birch box so hopefully they would sell another tiny product with it being full size! Other than that it was a really good box!

Much Love




Loosing Friends….

I’ve found that since deciding to move to Bristol everything and everyone around me has changed, from work to people who I thought were always my best friends.

Today I tried to make plans with my long time best friend to see her before I moved. She really isn’t interested. I think Iv’e known for a long time that my best friend was no longer my best friend but I just never wanted to admit it. My partner always told me that it was me that was doing the running and making all the effort but I always put it off and stuck up for her but today Iv’e finally had enough. It’s gotten to a point today I’m willing to send out a goodbye text to her. I cried ill admit it, as its a part of my life that was my childhood and a part that i always thought would be around but maybe that wasn’t supposed to happen. The situations might change and I would be happy about that of course but I’m now moving on with my life and I’ve decided I’m not going to do the running anymore. If people want to be my friend they make just as much amount of effort if not I’m not interested.

As you get older you do finally realise that your getting older and its scary, really scary. I’m the first one to officially leave the nest in my house which has made my mum very low and to the point where shes actually poorly. I haven’t got upset about the thought of leaving home yet, I don’t think It’s set in and I don’t think it will for quite a while but when It does I know It will hit me hard.

I never thought the day would come that I would loose one of the people that I thought would always be In my life, but apparently It was meant to be. I know my family will keep in contact which is nice to know that ill always have that to come back too in Stroud.

Life’s scary, even more scary Iv’e recently realised. I’m putting all my hope in me and my partner. I’m leaving my family, Iv’e left two jobs, Iv’e left my home town and Its all because of my partner. I wouldn’t change that for the world. Iv’e finally got what I wanted in life, A partner, a best friend and someone I’m spending the rest of my life with and I’m so excited to see what will happen next for me. I may have lost a few friends but Iv’e gained myself a real best friend for life now.

Live life on the edge and to the fullest. You may loose somethings on the way but it makes you realise who is real and who’s loyal to being in your life.

Lots of love



Climbing Pen Y Fan!

So Iv’e climbed my first mountain!

It was very very hard!

When my partner asked me if I wanted to climb a mountain I originally said no, just purely because of my size and I’m not really amazing at walking as my family’s a sat down family, but I have been going out walking and trying to get better over these past few months in the hopes that I would feel up to doing it. I was always scared just knowing that I would struggle a lot more than everyone else that did it would.

But coming up to Easter Sunday and I’m getting ready to go on a mountain walk. Who would of thought it, the worst walker and most moaner would end up walking up a mountain.

The first bit was one of the hardest, just because it was so steep and unstable so it took a toll on the ankles! I also got out of breath A LOT! It turned out that the rain decided to completely destroy the day and tip town on us at the top of the ridge! Me being me didn’t exactly wear the most sensible clothes so I was freezing! We then decided that it was too unsafe to actually climb the top of the mountain which made me devastated, just because I was already in so much pain that knowing that I still wasn’t actually going to do it was just heart breaking. But it turned out that us trying to make our way off of the mountain would end up in us actually walking up the mountain by accident. Which was amazing because it turned out that all the pain really was worth it in the end and wasn’t wasted. Getting off the mountain was so terrifying because as you came to the bottom all you could see was a stone and nothing else because you had to climb all the way down. Which was scary but as soon as your on the flat it feels so much better!

Even after we climbed the mountain we still had to walk all the way back to the car which was a walk in its self, and when your in pain its tripled in size!

Overall I feel really proud of myself, just because I never knew I could do something like that, and its all from the help of my partner and his family. There the ones that have encouraged me to be able to do it . My partner was always there pushing me through it and holding my hand, his mum was there cheering me on and making me know I could do it. Ill always be grate full to My partner and his encouragement with getting me walking and not sitting down all the time . Hes helped me found a hobby I actually really enjoy and cant wait to do more of!

Any girl, any size can do what ever she wants. It may be a struggle to get out there and exercise but in the end its still possible. Anything is possible!

Much Love




Weight Wednesday Week 6

Ok I think its safe to say I’ve given up on my diet! Im so annoyed at myself because I thought this time I would try really hard, but in all fairness my life is so stressful at the moment that I’m just eating takeaways and chocolate to help with stress which Is a poor excuse really!

Hopefully this week I’m going to try and get back on it so I feel a lot less bloated for the mountain this Sunday coming which I was hoping I would be 2 stone lighter by then but even though I haven’t lost weight I am still fitter than I was a few months ago with the walking that I do now. Normally when my partner walked up the shop to get something I would just get him to get what ever I wanted or I just wouldn’t go. Now ill walk up even when I don’t want anything, the trouble with that is that I walk up for chocolate when I want some but I have improved on that half! Im not so lazy any more and that was one of my bad habits. So even though I’ve put on a few pounds doesn’t mean that I haven’t still improved! I’m now back up to 24 stone 8 pounds which is so disappointing! I really need to remember the reason why I want to do it again and not just cave into the stress and business and start cooking and not eating chocolate again! Seen as though I’m lactose intolerant anyway.

So hopefully next week I will see an improvement! Hopefully walking up the mountain will help shift a few pounds as well!

Lots of Love



Weight Wednesday Week 5

Yep Im completely slacking on the whole blogging at the moment!

My life depending on the way that you look at it could be seen as a complete disaster or that I’m winning at life. Ive now finished working for the co-op which was one of the best decisions I’ve made so far but the job that I’ve left it for is now giving me headaches so I might now be loosing that one and just moving down to Bristol and winging it! I will admit I’m stressed as fuck at the moment. But isn’t that the part of growing up, being stressed and crying and all that. Life scary when you don’t have your parents making the decisions for you!

Anyway with that explained as to why I’m so terrible at blogging at the moment I need to talk about my weight.

Its not too bad at the moment. Last week I somehow managed to get down to 23 stone 12 pounds which made me so happy! But then in that time I decided that I would treat myself and eat unhealthy again which didn’t help because now I’m back unto 24 stone 2 pounds. But this does still mean I’ve lost a stone since Christmas which is the best I’ve done!

Ive also been very good with walking, me and my partner have been doing odd walks, I do sweat and get so out of breath but he encourages me so much that I just can’t give up! I love walking just something about it really calms me down and makes me feel way more awake and less frumpy when I move ( its a bit strange to describe it in that way but if your a big lass like me, you will understand where I’m coming from) We also went on our first walk with his parents and it wasn’t too bad. I didn’t sweat out too bad and actually felt alright while doing it for a change and not like I was dying . I am getting used to taking breaks when my body felt like it and not so much just trying to get the walk finished and get back to lying down. I am still eating quite bad seen as though mc donalds decided  it would bring back monopoly just in time when the mountain is in a few weeks. I feel like I’m going to do ok. I know ill be able to take as long as I want but it is a little scary, I just know that I’m going to feel so proud of myself after it so I know that its going to be worth it!

I have injured my hip which is so worrying though as I really don’t want anything to stop me from walking up that mountain so I need to rest it as much as possible! If not I guess I’m going to be stocked up on very strong painkillers for that day!

So I feel like the past few weeks was a success and I know I just have to carry on trying like I am as I am getting there slowly!

Much Love!