I’ve found that since deciding to move to Bristol everything and everyone around me has changed, from work to people who I thought were always my best friends.
Today I tried to make plans with my long time best friend to see her before I moved. She really isn’t interested. I think Iv’e known for a long time that my best friend was no longer my best friend but I just never wanted to admit it. My partner always told me that it was me that was doing the running and making all the effort but I always put it off and stuck up for her but today Iv’e finally had enough. It’s gotten to a point today I’m willing to send out a goodbye text to her. I cried ill admit it, as its a part of my life that was my childhood and a part that i always thought would be around but maybe that wasn’t supposed to happen. The situations might change and I would be happy about that of course but I’m now moving on with my life and I’ve decided I’m not going to do the running anymore. If people want to be my friend they make just as much amount of effort if not I’m not interested.
As you get older you do finally realise that your getting older and its scary, really scary. I’m the first one to officially leave the nest in my house which has made my mum very low and to the point where shes actually poorly. I haven’t got upset about the thought of leaving home yet, I don’t think It’s set in and I don’t think it will for quite a while but when It does I know It will hit me hard.
I never thought the day would come that I would loose one of the people that I thought would always be In my life, but apparently It was meant to be. I know my family will keep in contact which is nice to know that ill always have that to come back too in Stroud.
Life’s scary, even more scary Iv’e recently realised. I’m putting all my hope in me and my partner. I’m leaving my family, Iv’e left two jobs, Iv’e left my home town and Its all because of my partner. I wouldn’t change that for the world. Iv’e finally got what I wanted in life, A partner, a best friend and someone I’m spending the rest of my life with and I’m so excited to see what will happen next for me. I may have lost a few friends but Iv’e gained myself a real best friend for life now.
Live life on the edge and to the fullest. You may loose somethings on the way but it makes you realise who is real and who’s loyal to being in your life.
Lots of love