Weight Wednesday Week 8

This week has been great! To some extent, basically what me and my partner done was have weekends off for eating healthy, which at the weight that I’m at wasn’t a good idea. I kind of had this strange thought of it that I can take as long as I want but having that attitude isn’t great for me as this week I have only lost a pound so I’m at 24 stone 6 pounds.

This week I have been exercising like crazy! I done the Davina work out for cardio and actually felt great after! It was when the weather was so hot though so I was roasting! I also went swimming with my partner and some of his family. It was great, I haven’t gone swimming in so long and it was weird being back there without Kerrie who I alway used to go with when I was younger. I loved it and I hopefully will go swimming a lot more, well thats my goal too anyway. I also went on a bike ride which I haven’t done in forever, I think the last time I rode a bike was when I was in primary school so a very long time ago! I enjoyed it so much, I was really wobbly in the beginning and it was weird remembering how to ride a bike instead of driving a car. I have really enjoyed exercising this week its been really fun. Don’t get me wrong I was ache as hell and my muscles ached but it was worth it because it make me feel great after.

Eating, like I said in the beginning, I’ve had the wrong mind set towards it so my weekends were full of chocolate and fizzy drinks. This weekend coming I am going to try a different approach and see how that will help me, hopefully it will! I’m realising that this will be effort but it will be worth it, as how I’m feeling about putting on weight I don’t feel great about it so I need to do something about it and stop disappointing myself over it and actually put in more effort!

I feel like after this week I’m onto something, I’m putting in more effort when it comes to the exercise its just the food that I need to get under control a bit more. I do feel great though, I do feel like I’m a lot more energetic after exercising. Hopefully next week I will actually loose weight though! My goal is 3 pounds again!

Much Love




Meditation Monday : Calm App Review

Meditation Mondays are back! They did go for a little while because I just couldn’t find anything or anytime to take time out of my day to help me stay calm so I’m finally back on it and hopefully this time it will stay!

This time I’ve tried my time with the calm app, they do have a calm book companion which I will be reviewing soon as its a fave of mine. I looked around for a while trying to find a good meditation helping app, as I’ve struggled before when I’ve tried to meditate I thought this time I would try an app to help me along trying to learn to meditate. I then found the calm app as I was looking in my book and downloaded it, I realised that they have meditation talks on there so I figured I would give meditating ago again.

The calm app they have sounds and wallpapers on in the background so as your meditating you can choose different things to listen too like a fire, beach or a rainstorm anything like that. I like to have either the beach or the fire on as I like to think I’m by the beach relaxing. They also have in the app which I found really helpful was the 7 days of calm which helped you learn how to meditate and how to bring your mind back when it wondered. It also has an unguided meditation so you can choose how long you want to meditate for and it will tell you when the time is up. They also have help with timers with little bells on so your reminded to bring yourself back in so your mind isn’t wondering which is great because I find that I did that a lot In the beginning. Theres also a breathing section when if your feeling a little anxious or just want to practice your breathing you have a section you can just pop on and have ago at, there are so many different meditation guiders for different things even stress and sleep! . The app also tells you how long you’ve taken to meditate in total and how many days streak you’ve done it for which is cool to see because then you realise how much time you’ve taken to relax and take time out for yourself. There is more features if you pay, I haven’t payed as I haven’t found the need as they offer plenty for non subscribers. Theres the options of paying monthly for $12.99, yearly for $59.99 or lifetime for $299.99, but as I said they do offer plenty for non payers.

I love meditating, I find it so relaxing and I do really feel like I go into another world, It has surprisingly helped me with my driving, its strange to think that 10 minutes a day meditating has helped me with that but I can definitly tell the difference when I haven’t meditated in a few days. It does also help me feel more tired sometimes because it relaxes me so much but then sometimes it can make me feel so awake and refreshed. The app offers so much help with trying to learn it has been an easy skill to pick up, trust me in the beginning it was difficult and somedays It still can be but just even if I spend half of the time I wanted too relaxed and having my mind off of my worries thats fine because its still time that I’ve taken out to sit down and just think about relaxing and keeping calm. Its much easier putting on headphones I found just because then you can get no distractions if someone shuts a door or someone calls out, Its much easier to just zone out and make it something to focus on.

I really suggest trying meditation, my depression did start playing up for a bit, I started meditating and I was so calm again after. It really helps with your mental health and just keeping calm everyday. Its free you can do it for as long as you want even 5 minutes and you will feel the difference, so please if your feeling stressed about anything, download the calm app! You will definitely feel the difference!

Much Love



Weight Wednesday Is Back!

Ok so its officially back and I’m going to stick to it this time! no matter how busy life gets or how much I fail (hopefully not this time) I am going to keep updating this!

Ive been trying to get better again just by cutting out fizzy drinks and stuff like that, its been good somedays when its super hot and all I want is a cold drink of fizzy its so difficult! I do still have it, I have it on the weekends and one or two between the week. It might sound still bad but to me that it literally amazing because I would drink a whole 2 litre bottle everyday so to me thats an improvement! Ive gotten better on eating chocolate this week its much better I do still have some just not a lot, I’m just getting better with my lactose intolerance  because I have started eating cakes and chocolate bad  but now I’m completely off of it again really!

Exercise is decent at the moment, since Monday I have been out on a couple of walks and  done a few exercises, they do make me very tired but a little while after I do have more energy and I feel great so its worth it, Ive recently bought some of the Demi Lovato Fabletics range so I’m raring to get out tomorrow to start exercising in my new workout gear!

So at the moment I’m at 24 stone 5 pounds which is 341 pounds. My goal for next week is to loose at least 3 pounds!

Much Love



Cutiepiemarzia’s Floral Subscription Box


This is Marzia’s Floral Box! I love the front design of the box I find the little creatures cute and I like the fact that Marzia drew them and added them into the floral design of the box. I hate that they just use the shipping box as the actual subscription box because there never as nice to just keep but then I get that it saves on packaging and using more resources.

Fresh Rose Deep Hydration Face Cream


I LOVE this product, it smells amazing it feels amazing on my skin! Im going to use it as my special moisturiser and not use it up all in one go just because it smells so good! It didn’t make my skin too oily which I suffer with, with moisturisers so that was a surprise! I would definitely look into buying the full size product of this one. Its supposed to offer over 24 hours of hydration and it definitely did, in the morning my skin wasn’t dried up or anything like that It was a really good product! Even if it wasn’t I would still buy it just to sit there and smell it to be honest so it being a great product is just a plus!

Yes to Calming Micellar Cleansing Water

This is a nice product, to me it doesn’t stand out as one of the best products from the box. It smells really nice! It does smell quite strong of cucumbers which is quite nice because it does feel like its cleansing and lasts a nice smell on the skin after. It is a cleanser, toner and moisturiser in one which is really good! To be it made my skin a little oily after wards which isn’t great but that happens often with products just because of my skin type. The pump dispenser is cool, sometimes it does go everywhere if you don’t cover the cotton pad completely over but it is quite a nice idea and it does dispense enough to do your whole face and neck!

Smashbox Photo Finish Primer


I really love this product! Ive already looked into buying the full size! It feels so smooth on the skin, it doesn’t make my skin oily which is a massive plus for me, makeup goes on so easy and smooth it literally makes makeup going on the skin feel like a cloud. It make my makeup stay all day and it didn’t budge! It is close to the benefit cosmetics pore one but I like this one a lot more, I would choose this one over it any day just by how easy it make applying my makeup!

 DERMA E Microdermabrasion Scrub


This product is really good for acne! I found that I’ve been under a lot of stress lately so my skin has been a nightmare! This has helped a lot, it helped the spots that I did have come up so go away which was amazing because it was awful! You can only use this twice a week which is quite annoying as I would use it all the time but its because of how hard of a scrub it is. It helped a lot with my dry skin as well, it didn’t completely get rid of it but it helped, My acne scars seem to be a little less obvious, still there but not as clear and dark which is amazing . I looked online and the price for full size isn’t too bad, It is quite expensive but it would be worth the money.

Custom Marzia WinkyLux Eyeshadow

I love the fact that they gave out micro eyeshadows from Marzias new collab, Thats always the plus with having marzias box because you always get something from if she collars with a company. I love the packaging of this product, I wish the actual eyeshadow packaging was that same as the outside package but sadly its just a white but it means that I’ve kept the out packaging because its too cute to throw out. This is a very orange eyeshadow! I didn’t think I would be able to wear it just because I’m more of a pale colour eyeshadow but when you blend this one out, you can see that its orange but its a very subtle one because I hardly used any product just because I didn’t want a bright orange eye if not if you put a lot on you would have a very bright orange eye. It blends out really well and is a really nice formula. I would love to see the big palette and I might look into getting it!

Surprise Product from Kate Aspen 


These are the salt and pepper shakers from the Kate aspen collection. There was the chance of these and a photo frame. I really like these I find these really cute and very nice decor, I think I would of preferred the photo frame just because the pattern on the box of this one was the print of the photo frame so that would of been cute but I do still like these. They are very small so you would have to refill them every time which would be a pain but there worth the effort just by how cute they are!

Kenra Professional Platinum Blow Dry Spray


This is one of my favourites from the box, it makes my hair feel so soft and silky and it also helps with the knots that I’m struggling with at the moment. Even if my hair is super knotty I just put this on my wet hair and put a brush through it and its completely fine! It also helps with flyaway during the day, it never seems to be frizzy after drying and helps to keep to style in longer. I will be buying this after this bottle runs out because it helps a lot with struggling to brush my hair!

Forest Creatures Sewing Kit 

Mini sewing kits are always handy! This one literally has everything even buttons and a safety clip. My only issue was as soon as I opened it , it broke so every time I open it, it breaks open and I have to struggle to close it so I don’t think it was very expensive for them to make. other than that I do really like this product and the idea of it. Its also a very good mini sewing kit as it has EVERYTHING! I love Marzias little forest creatures designs there really cute!

White Wire Headband


This is a really cute add on to the box! Im not sure wether I would ever use it just because my head doesn’t suit things at all. Its a good quality product, not a lot was thought of it I don’t think but it is really cute and does fill in the box really well.

Overall I liked this box, this was a lot better than the last one but there was the same issue as I had last time as that there isn’t a lot of personally thought out things and just products, it must be the plan that she has because its always 2 things that is personally made for the box. This boxes products were better than the last one, I’m more likely to use these products and have actually given me more ideas of what products. Hopefully next box she will have more self thought products in!

Much Love



Birchbox : May 2017


It’s May already! So its already time for my review of this months Birchbox. I loved the design on the box this month, I’m keeping it the same as I did last month ( I just hope this doesn’t become a reacurence )

Benefit Cosmetics : The POREfessional Matte Rescue|RRP £23.50


Iv’e always been a fan of benefit products they’ve always worked out for me like the mascaras and tints. This one has always been a go to for me as I’ve used this before, It is very pricy but I would pay full price (I’ve only ever been able to afford the small tubes) It always works well on my acne prone skin, it helps my skin to look less oily for much longer than normal products. The size of this product is really great, its good for traveling but its larger than there normal small size products. This was a really good product to come from Birchbox!

Doucce : Punk Volumizer Mascara | RRP £18


This is my first time trying a product from this brand. Apparently it was a birch box exclusive! Im quite fussy with mascaras because Im not a fan of ones that clump your eyelashes together, so its quite difficult to find one that doesn’t do that as everyone seems to like that type of eyelash at the moment. This one was great! I didn’t put an eyelash primer on underneath and it worked really well! I would consider buying the full product but it is the same price as Clinique and I would prefer the Clinique one but this one is still great on its own. I wouldn’t say it didn’t give my lashes more volume but it didn’t clump my eyelashes so that was all that mattered for me so if your someone looking for one that can help with that maybe this one isn’t for you.

Kueshi : Hair Mask Shine & Volume | RRP £10.50


This was a decent product. Lets just say I wouldn’t buy it, it made my hair too volumised for my liking, some people would like a product like that so if you like your hair to have volume this product does work. Its just not for me as I don’t like having volume to my already thick frizzy hair! I felt like it also made my hair very knotty which for a conditioner should do the opposite but that might be because of the dye build up on the bottom of my hair not suiting this product as normally my hair isn’t knotty so it might just not work well with this product. I personally wouldn’t buy the full size product of this but if your looking for very volumised hair then this is the product for you!

Marsk : Mineral Eyeshadow in Fifty Shades | RRP £14.49


To be honest, I really don’t like the colour, but that is completely on me because I hate black eyeshadows, I find it hard to find an eyeshadow I like as it is and a black one to be is just completely off the ball! To be honest I haven’t tried this product just because I can’t ever wear black eyeshadow, I tried it on the back of my hand and it applied really well but other than that I can’t give an honest review of it. Only that I don’t understand why birch box didn’t let everyone choose which colour everyone would like because the difference between black and the light white colour they had is completely different and I would of used the whiter one but this one I can’t use which is a shame.

Obsessive Compulsive Cosmetics : Lip Tar Primer | RRP £15.00


I like this product. I feel like its worth buying instead of lip balms because it kept my lips very hydrated throughout the day and I didn’t feel the need to apply lip balm which obviously saves time throughout the day and saves product as I didn’t have to use it multiple times. I didn’t try it under lipstick because I’m not much of a fan but as it says on the product you can just use it as a lip balm so thats what I’m going to use it for. I would possibly by this product again it is very expensive for the size of It but I imagine it would be bigger for the price as they give testers so I would possibly see what size the full size is.

I liked this box, its not amazing but its been better than the others, I just wished they had asked which colour you wanted for the eyeshadow then it would of been my favourite! I loved the box design thats definitely my fave because Im a massive fan of marble! Ive kept this one as well as the Boden one because they are very good to keep little odd things in and the designs are really nice!

Much Love



Makeup Remover Cloths!


Now I know you’ve probably heard about the makeup eraser! Who’s hasn’t! Well while I was shopping I found these at B&M bargains for a whopping bargain for £1.99! Ive been trying to find a cheap alternate for the makeup eraser for a long time because I liked the thought of them, I think there great for saving on waste because your not having to throw out makeup wipes and all that which I hate doing! These you literally have to just wash and there ready to use again! I really like these! I have used them and washed them again to see if they still worked after washing them, and yes they did!

How long they will last for, I don’t know but then thats the same for everything even if it saves me from using up a pack of wipes and throwing them out I’m happy! For the price they are its a bargain. There quite soft on your face which is nice, they say they have a exfoliant side but I’m not sure which one it is as when you wet them they just seem the same, you can tell when there dry but not when there wet.

My only issue with these is literally that you have to wash them if not you have no means of getting your makeup off at night, but if you get enough to last the week that won’t be a problem as I am going to get some more soon so that won’t be an issue then. It does take maybe a little longer than it does a wipe but I normally get a stinging on my eyes and face which I didn’t get with these because its literally just water,  So this is definitely a good cheap alternative and I would recommend!

Much Love





My Thoughts On 13 Reasons Why…


This is my thoughts on the Netflix Original series ’13 reasons why’ which is based off the book ’13 reasons why’. Theres a lot of controversial comments everywhere about this show at the moment. I decided I would watch it because my sister had mentioned it too me and said how great it was and then every time I logged onto Facebook there was some post about the show on there so I figured it was time to finally watch it to see what the craze was about. I really really loved this show, in all honesty the first few I wasn’t too into I didn’t know wether I would carry on watching it but all of a sudden I was into it and so obsessed and couldn’t stop watching.

Im not aiming to put spoilers in this but just in case your someone who hasn’t watched it, you might read something you don’t want too just yet. It doesn’t take long to get into the story as it starts basically straight away from the first episode which is great because I like programmes and films that are fast moving just because my concentration isn’t the best. But after that I was hooked and with having a busy life it was difficult to find time so I had to find time!

Its a very gripping programme with the story lines it deals with, from sexual assault to self harm to suicide. Its handling with a lot which is good because its basically showing all the issues and topics that it seems society is trying to keep away from. I feel like it handles the topics very well in the way they show each one. The main one is obviously the suicide of Hannah baker which is one of the scenes that has been spoke about the most as people think its too graphic.

From someone who has experienced self harm and attempted suicide attempts I feel like this show puts everything into light, the fact that multiple things can just add up to everything being too much for someone. The only issue that the programme has is that it doesn’t mention mental health a lot. It just mentions that the people are the reasons why which is half the reason why. Their actions obviously didn’t help with the fact that Hannah baker was mentally ill, It is just making the point that you shouldn’t treat people like that because you don’t know what their dealing with on the inside so your actions might not help. There are so many scenes that are real tear jerkers and others that are just very uncomfortable, like the rape scenes and obviously Hannah suicide scene, coming back to that my view is that yes it was very graphic, very, and being someone who has self harmed it is quite triggering but I did look up before watching the show to see if there was any scenes with that being involved just because I do get triggered by that. So I was expecting that to happen I was aware just like everyone else that had decided to watch the show as its a show on suicide. I think that scene was needed though, just as it showed how it can send people into such a low point that they would do that to themselves. It showed that yes maybe sometimes its something small but to someone else it can be a life changer.

I feel like parents complaining about this is ridiculous. Obviously it comes up with a warning as the show starts, Its rated an 18. If parents are complaining about how it encourages suicide and romanticises it they shouldn’t be showing it to underage kids, as its coming from schools that there putting a warning over it. Its got a high age rating for a reason and a warning in the beginning for a reason. Part of me feels like its people that don’t want to hear about it and don’t want that topic brought up. I might be wrong, but to me its showing what this shows trying to get out there and thats that people need to talk about it, people need to see this and understand that thats whats going on in some peoples head. This needs to be a topic and programme that is talked about and not put to the back because its ‘too’ graphic.

I love this programme and I would even rewatch it again. I think more people need to see this and more people need to get talking about the issues that is raised!

Much Love



( Im also hoping for a season 2, just like everyone else )